Ewe lamb and I cannot believe it has still 4 days ago. Never has a month seemed so long. Both agreed seems an eternity – a good 2 months since I said sad farewell to him on New Year’s day and began this blog and yet technically it is less than 1 month….in that time so much has happened. He has: Got a new flatmate via spare room. Applied for a job at Google – “Gotta swing the bat Mum”, given notice on his flat and booked a holiday in Dubai. Arranged to organise an Ant Brotherhood” by moving in with Big bro and Dad to save money.
Spring like today for first time. Actually woken up by birds at 0820hrs. Rather irritating a actually
Children Skiied at Plymouth dry slope. Then Prince Philip cup Mounted games at Ermington . On way back a song came on radio that reminded me of recently departed close family member . By chance I dreamed of that person last night and such a joyful, albeit tearful, reunion it was. So hard to wake up today and let go. Literally felt the beloved slipping through my fingers I turned the corner to consciousness, so vivid was it.
When THE song came on the radio, car went silent and we listened to most of it before river sprite saw me put a hand to my eye and looked up at me. Good blub ensued on my part. ” “The thing is darling, I said sniffling loudly, “this reminds me so much of.. ”
She looked down at her lap, almost wearily and cut me short, sad, low voice – “I know Mum…..I know”.
It occurred to me then I don’t remember my parents crying in front of me ever about a dear departed relative and there must have been many. They would look at a photo or portrait and say matter of factly, “of course your dear ‘xxx died in such and such a place on….”
Gone soft? My generation gone soft?
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